Things I forgot

I swear if I could remember half the stuff I forgot I'd really be somewhere.

That's why I write EVERYTHING down. If I make plans with you and don't immediately put it in my phone; I'm sorry. I'm not going to be there. I will forget the moment we part ways. It's a

curse, but also a blessing sometimes. I get so many fun surprises!!

Since disconnecting from social media, I've remembered something crucial that I'd forgotten.

I love to write.

I used to write often. Short stories and poems, mostly. I've been published in an anthology of young writers, though at this time I cannot remember when or what the name of it was.

Must've forgot

Why is this rushing back to me now? All of my thoughts and observations and interesting things I see along the way were shared on Facebook as status updates or albums. Anything posted on Facebook is the property of Facebook and can be used however they see fit. I've simply decided that that is no longer acceptable.

Nah.

If anybody is going to make money off of me, it's going to be me. I created this space so that I'm screaming in to my own lil void, not Zuckerberg's. I'll no longer be posting original content there, but rather sharing content that I've posted elsewhere. That's if I even decide to re-engage, which is doubtful.

Social media can create discourse around your work and help it be seen and form like minded communities; but it can also deflate your self esteem, negatively affect creativity, and make you chase that dopamine boost that comes with likes and comments (and they know, and they do it intentionally) I find that, for me, it was like pouring in to an endless bucket. Those posts were fleeting. The pictures aren't in albums I can flip through and remember, but floating in some imaginary Facebook cloud. I'm a visual girl, I like to see and feel stuff to know it's real. I'm enjoying writing more with my hand and a pen and a journal, and sharing things here, with y'all.

My mother loves to write also and I like to think the trait comes from her. I'm excited to dive back in and record my thoughts. Writing things down has always helped me work through complicated memories and commit things to memory. I use a simple daily spread in my journal to keep track of where everything is in my world and some habits I'm trying to cultivate but have pages of thoughts and plans and processes I'm working on. I love to just brain dump whatever phrases or words I associate with a topic and see where it leads me. My journal is part bullet journal/agenda, part habit tracker, part productivity planner, and a whole lot of gratitude.

With journal in hand, I shall not forget!!